Tuesday, June 16, 2009


Ladies and Gentlemen, AS IF you didn't know that I'm engaged because I've been clearly stating it for the past year or so.

But that's not what my bitch is about. I'm having a hard time with a few things lately. and Its not like my life had been quietly playing out all its drama as of late. Not in the slightest. Some of you are probably still wondering WTF!!! I don't feel like going into alot of details because I strongly believe in privacy.

Me and my Fiance are working through a few problems and I am glad to announce his arival home finally after six years, Yup you read that right. We've been dating for the past 8 years but i moved to the city and for 6 years we've been doing a "Long Distance Relationship" IT SUCKS ASS.

I missed him alot and it made travel time very difficult because I don't drive. I'm sure if I did I would have drove out to the country more. Many times I've wanted to end the relationship but he told me we can make this work. Too many people give up to easy, and thats what we both hated about today's society. No one believes in working hard anymore. And those that do get the shit end of the stick.

When I felt like I just couldn't take it any more and I was at my wits end with the way I was being treated by his family, my fiance told me not to give up.

He proposed to me one night while getting together with my parents. We were already engaged but I kinda resented that he never propsed to me properly, we had just agreed to get married and then made the anouncement at a family gathering.

So there I am crying because I was just getting over a pre life crissis ( a mid life crissis are for women who are cougars) DR. Knowitall is down on one knee and hes holding my hands trieng to convince me not to run. He tells me how much he loves me and needs me, I'm crying even more after he asks that I marry him this year instead of next year.

Like a moron I'm thinking "I have no camera" I tell him that I would. which gave us exactly 3 months to plan a wedding....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Everything is being done I just have to pay for the cake, The rings were prity easy to find, the flowers are being made as we speek. The dress is in my closet awaiting for my chesty body to lose a few inches so I can do up the zipper. Point of advice future brides this should be the time that you buy the dress, I made the mistake of going back in the winter time to buy the dress (gatta love winter weight)

My mother in law is a sweet woman, I love her. But the only thing we have in common is the fact that we had a ruff bringing up. Shes taken the burdon of planning our wedding, how ever I think she's planning more her wedding then mine. She doesn't like what we chose for our wedding toppers, she wants full controll of the music selection, and shes even tried to change the dress on me SEVRAL TIMES.

Ladys I'm not a girley girl, I just wanted a BAR-B-Q and a potluck dinner with some friends and family. I realy didn't want a big suaret. But there must be a party. Hey I'm all for dancing and having a great time, but I also don't want to feel like a guest at my own wedding. So my dear fiance is going to talk to his mom about a few things that we don't agree on.

It the man's wedding too and I want to make sure that he has a say in what goes as well, but he told me he just wants to get married he doesn't care as long as i'm wearing a white dress and theres a minister at the alter.

I feel like i'm going insane but I know all will work out in the end.