WHOSE WEDDING IS IT ANYWAY?????

Ladies and Gentlemen, AS IF you didn't know that I'm engaged because I've been clearly stating it for the past year or so.

But that's not what my bitch is about. I'm having a hard time with a few things lately. and Its not like my life had been quietly playing out all its drama as of late. Not in the slightest. Some of you are probably still wondering WTF!!! I don't feel like going into alot of details because I strongly believe in privacy.

Me and my Fiance are working through a few problems and I am glad to announce his arival home finally after six years, Yup you read that right. We've been dating for the past 8 years but i moved to the city and for 6 years we've been doing a "Long Distance Relationship" IT SUCKS ASS.

I missed him alot and it made travel time very difficult because I don't drive. I'm sure if I did I would have drove out to the country more. Many times I've wanted to end the relationship but he told me we can make this work. Too many people give up to easy, and thats what we both hated about today's society. No one believes in working hard anymore. And those that do get the shit end of the stick.

When I felt like I just couldn't take it any more and I was at my wits end with the way I was being treated by his family, my fiance told me not to give up.

He proposed to me one night while getting together with my parents. We were already engaged but I kinda resented that he never propsed to me properly, we had just agreed to get married and then made the anouncement at a family gathering.

So there I am crying because I was just getting over a pre life crissis ( a mid life crissis are for women who are cougars) DR. Knowitall is down on one knee and hes holding my hands trieng to convince me not to run. He tells me how much he loves me and needs me, I'm crying even more after he asks that I marry him this year instead of next year.

Like a moron I'm thinking "I have no camera" I tell him that I would. which gave us exactly 3 months to plan a wedding....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Everything is being done I just have to pay for the cake, The rings were prity easy to find, the flowers are being made as we speek. The dress is in my closet awaiting for my chesty body to lose a few inches so I can do up the zipper. Point of advice future brides this should be the time that you buy the dress, I made the mistake of going back in the winter time to buy the dress (gatta love winter weight)

My mother in law is a sweet woman, I love her. But the only thing we have in common is the fact that we had a ruff bringing up. Shes taken the burdon of planning our wedding, how ever I think she's planning more her wedding then mine. She doesn't like what we chose for our wedding toppers, she wants full controll of the music selection, and shes even tried to change the dress on me SEVRAL TIMES.


Ladys I'm not a girley girl, I just wanted a BAR-B-Q and a potluck dinner with some friends and family. I realy didn't want a big suaret. But there must be a party. Hey I'm all for dancing and having a great time, but I also don't want to feel like a guest at my own wedding. So my dear fiance is going to talk to his mom about a few things that we don't agree on.

It the man's wedding too and I want to make sure that he has a say in what goes as well, but he told me he just wants to get married he doesn't care as long as i'm wearing a white dress and theres a minister at the alter.

I feel like i'm going insane but I know all will work out in the end.

Wedding Gitters

Now that new years is over and everyone is in the process of breaking their New Years Resolutions let me be the first to congratulate those who decided not to make a resolution. I don't see the point of them, i was once one of those people that once said "By this time next year I'm going to be smoke free." i didn't quit smoking until September of 2007.

With our economy being the way it is, I'm realizing that I need to re think my career. I am not going to give up on my dream of becoming a successful broadcaster however i may have to change my career for a while so that i can save up enough money for myself to get all the technology i need to start my business. This is going to suck ass royally for me. The only thing i have proven to do well is being in retail...I hate retail.

Its at the point now where my life seems to be going no where, Yeah i know I'm getting married in a few months but honestly i have to admit. I'm scared. its not the fact that i have cold feet. its my family and friends. My sisters hate my family, and their not even willing to put aside their bullshit long enough for me to walk down the isle. Which means i will have to rely on two other women who don't know me as much and the last time we hung out together for the whole day was back in high school. I do have a few guy friends who i consider to be good friends but i can't exactly have them as my bridesmaids. trust me two heavy set men in plumb purple dresses. I'm not trying to do a production of the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

My husband to be and I haven't even come close to picking out our wedding song. Don't couples usually have this sort of thin figured out during the dating process? Man its worse that going to the dentist and having the man fall asleep while your mouth is propped open waiting for him to Finnish the capping process on your teeth. (BTW this actually happened)

I keep having this recurring nightmare that my wedding is one big disaster, everyone complaining about the food, the wedding party gets lost, and my dress gets destroyed. Maybe i should just do the safe thing and sign the paper work and then have a giant social instead. its cheaper and less hassle for my family to start WORLD WAR III.

Well that's enough bitching for now, have a good one.