DEAR INTERNET

I can’t help but feel a sense of regret for not being there for Conan when he took over the Tonight Show. Due to working dumb shifts and switching jobs, I’ve missed several episodes. I’ve been a huge fan of his for years. Many of the skits that I laughed hysterically at on SNL were written by him.
I am saddened by the decision that NBC made to not keep Conan at all, he worked hard for them and this is the way they repay him. And to cancel him on the eve of the five year anniversary of Johnny Carson’s death was in my mind killing him twice.

At first I was in total disbelief and thought that this was only a publicity stunt to get more viewers to watch, but after watching Conan’s last broadcast on the Tonight show made it clear….NBC screwed him royally. They tried to make it seem like they were the good guys by giving him a severance package and a ban on appearing on his own for seven months.

I keep hearing that Fox want to have him but with Fox’s track record of cancelling good shows before they have a chance to flourish, I can’t help but worry for our pale faced redhead. I think if he would go to Comedy Central and work with Colbert for a while until he gets himself settled in would be a better idea. Or hell how about working for Howard Stern for a year, That would encourage many people to get Satellite and forcing NBC to hide in their proverbial closets and suck their thumbs while their walls around them come crashing down.
Now I am seeing the support that the fans are giving through facebook and all over the net. CNN and other new groups are claiming that the support won’t last. But I disagree. We are a strong group, and Conan will continue to shine.

Conan has stated that we should not be cynical; however it is quite hard sometimes not to be. I see people trying to capitalize on the loss of Conan. Their making t-shirts, signs, and even wigs of Conan’s hair. I even saw on e-bay someone is selling what is supposed to be an actual Triumph the insulting dog.

http://cgi.ebay.com/Triumph-Insult-Comic-Dog-Conan-OBrien-Authentic-Puppet_W0QQitemZ220535254243QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item3358ecece3

I just hope that Conan knows that he has the support he deserves from his fans. As a fellow nerd who laughed at all his jokes about nerds online and all his comic book references, I want to thank you for giving me the inspiration for going into broadcasting.

I hope the best for you COCO!!
It’s going to be a long seven months but I hope you take a nice long vacation to Ireland and kiss the Blarney stone for me!!
LOVE YOU ALWAYS! YOUR 1 BILLIONTH FAN.

Well peeps it's time for another installment of MY MONTHLY BITCHING.

I'm sure you all can guess that I'm about to bitch about my job. I have once again got into a position where I'm feeling like I was just hired until someone else comes along to do the job. Despite the many times I hear from the rest of the staff that they love working with me.

I have only been at my job for about four months, however I've already noticed the true colors of the management. I don't know why I have problems getting past the PART TIME position.

I have asked my boss why my hours are being cut. Being untrustworthy and flipping out on customers is a trait I never knew I possessed. Especially when I tend to be 20 to 30 minutes early for my shift, and as for the customers; there is always going to be a customer that will try to get out of paying full price for their product and will make a huge stink to the boss when they go home and complain about their recent visit to the store and how unfairly they were treated. You are suposed to smile and nod and take whatever abuse from them when they are doing nothing but yelling at you about the defective product you just sold them. (there's reasons why people bring guns into work)

No I'm not planning on going on a homicidal rage, don't read into my post that much. But I'm just saying there is a snapping point and believe me its not towards the customers at all.

I have shown the utmost respect for the people I work with and I expect the same in return, however it was brought to my attention today that respect comes with a price. Its my dignity.

I have never felt more ashamed, angry, and outraged as I have tonight. And for my own BOSS to show such childish behavior is mind boggling.

Yesterday I wanted to share my artistic vision with the world and I drew on the menu board a nice picture of our new Coffee (see above) It is a nice logo and I thought I did it justice.

I drew out the first part of it and I asked my manager and her minion what they thought of it. They both said it was nice. Then I was told to draw the crown part and I was more than happy to do it. I helped the customers and finished my job and after I was done work I stayed to finish the picture. I then showed the two the finished product and they seemed happy with it. OR SO IT SEEMED.

After I had left the store they told another guy to re draw the picture. He refused. Then what I am supposed to believe was an accident the minion spilled water on the chalk drawing. Giving my co-worker no choice but to re do the picture. They wanted him to be the fall guy for their stupidity. He was supposed to make up a cover story as to not hurt my feelings so they wouldn't have to explain to me the following day when I returned back to work. Like I wouldn't notice the picture had change.

Its at this point where I feel like I have no one to trust and I am supposed to be happy and smile while working with these people.

I'll take my chances on the grouchy customers thank you.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

HOLY CRAP!! Is it already 2010?

Well its been a while since I last posted something and honestly I forgot my password for a while...Yes I know how bad that sounds.

Well as you probably already noticed I've done a few vids on youtube trying to show the different creative ideas I have. I love entetaining you people. You make it worth the amount of time I spend on my computer everyday.

2009 was a whirl wind and hopefully 2010 will bring many joys in to my life and as well as yours.

I just want to show you my aspirations and goals for this year.

1. I want to get myself ready for going back on stage to do comedy, I've done it twice a few years back and I feel like I'm finally ready to get back on the stage and get my name out there.

2. I want to get together a really awesome demo for getting a job in a radio station. I realize that in order for me to own my own station I actually need the proper training and experience.

4. I want to try to finnish my story I've been writing and send it off to Marvel Comics to see if they will publish it. That's right I wrote a FANFIC...on the X-MEN.

5. I want to work on a comedy zombie web series....A ZOMBEDY!!! I have quite a few people who are interested in getting on with this project, I just need the time and money.

6. I just want to have fun this year, 2010 IS GOING TO BE A GOOD YEAR!!!

well take it easy peeps and I will do my best not to forget my password.

MISS DIAGNOSIS

I am proud to live in a country where health care is provided Freely without having to pay an arm and a leg for treatment. However I do have a problem with a system that has a habit of giving the wrong information without doing the proper tests.

Back in 2001 I went for my first PAP Test. The doctor who performed the test informed me that I had a Benign Cyst in my vagina. Shocked to hear this news I asked the doctor what can be done about it and she told me that its nothing to worry about.

Fast forward about six years later. I had just quit a stressful job being a security guard and I feel pain in my right side. Sharp Piercing Pain. It got to the point where I couldn't walk, it hurt to move. I'm not one to take pain killers unless it called for it, in one day I had taken Over my limit of Tyonal. My roommate at the time had T3's I had taken 4 of them and still the pain persisted.

I went to see my husband's family doctor to find out what was wrong. He told me it was an ulcer and put me on medication. Now keep in mind he didn't actually take my blood, or take any tests. Instead he poked at the area where I told him it hurt and he made up his mind from that.

Well guess what the pain was still there and the medication did absolutely nothing. I decided one day to go in for another PAP test. I found out that I had abnormal Cells around my Cervix and remember the Cyst? Yeah that grew to the size of a grape fruit according to the Gynecologist who removed it for me. Since then I haven't had any pain in my side and I've been given a bill of clean health.

I've lived with a giant sack of PUSS in my vagina for six years. I'm thanking my lucky stars that's all it was. You should be able to trust what the doctor says as being true. They are there to tell us weather or not we are healthy, and when we aren't they are supposed to tell us how to make us healthy.

Recently I had some problems with my right foot. I have a spur on my heal (it a build up of calcium on the bone) I have changed shoes, worn out several insoles, and tried to live with the pain. But the pain in my heal doesn't compare to the pain I now feel in my big toe and across the top of my foot. Again I have taken many a Tyonal to relive the pain but it still persists. I assumed it was because I was doing Yoga too much so I stopped.

Months went by, I got married, and switched jobs but I find my self in more pain and limping around the house like an old lady. I'm only 27.

I went to a podiatrist and she told me that I have a stress fracture. OK so I get a new insole in my shoes. Few weeks later I'm curious to know how bad the "Stress Fracture" is. I go on my day off to the clinic and wait 4 hours for an X-ray.

First of all the doctor is telling me that there's nothing wrong with my foot that the pain must be muscular and that i just need to get better shoes. I tell him about the spur on my heal. He gives me a blank stare and tries to argue with me and say I don't have one.

Ladies and gentlemen I saw the X-ray myself when I went to get my heal checked a few years ago. I saw the Spur, it looks like a little hook. I walk on it day in and day out, if that's not a spur on my heal WTF is it???

So he tries to prove me wrong by showing me the X-ray and yeah there was nothing wrong with it, however IT WAS THE WRONG X-RAY. He then relises his mistake and switches to my X-ray. Low and Bohold, I have a crooked toe. He tells me that I have a misalignment in my foot and that I should look into going into Physio Therapy. All fine and dandy if you have money to afford it, however I don't have my benefits yet at my job. And I doubt Starbucks pays that kind of money out for it.

Which brings to today. I made an apointment with my chiropractor to see if theres anything he can do for my foot. I go in after work, take off my sock and he tells me I have a Hallux valgus. which is a BUNION. My chiropractor was mad. He noticed it right away when i took off my sock.

Why is my chiropractor treating my foot when I went to two "Specialists"???? Has our medical society become that LAZY?

I understand their over loaded with patents but isn't that why we pay them the BIG BUCKS???

I'm tired of being misdiagnosed by doctors who are just in it for the money. That is how people die. I really don't want there to be a next time, because I'm worried it might be fatal.

Yay the comic con is finally here!!!

Time to

Geek-Out

and be that obnoxious nerd that I try to lock up every other time of year.

However this is my first comic-con and already I'm a bit peeved.

Why you ask well i'll put it like so....

1. First of all I can't go the whole weekend like I was dreaming for so many months ago. I can only go Friday. I have to work the rest of the weekend.

2. The main reason why I wanted to go was to meet Adam West ( think 1960's Batman for those who might want to ask the dumb question) wont be showing up till Sunday.

3. If by some miracle i would have been able to meet said pop icon (obviously not until magical pigs start to come down from heaven and fly out of my own ass) I would have to pay the entrance fee is $12.00 or if i wanted to go real crazy and pay for the weekend pass which is $30.00 at the door.

Then somehow dodge the relentless amount of drooling, allergy infected, asthma ridden, bio-hazards we call nerds. Get to where their holding the Q&A and pay $100.00 and listen to the COMIC BOOK GUY like mentality of many of the participants.

Then get in line and wait probably two hours if not longer depends on how many episode related questions and comments about how many women he slept with might be asked. Finally get to Mr. West and bend over like a cheap whore once again and pay another $40.00 for an autograph photo of the man I once called my favorite Batman (sorry Keaton and Bail)

Now if you were all fallowing the math problem. I'll give you a few moments to take out your hand dandy computer calculator.....(Humming Jeopardy theme music)

that brings us to #4.

$182.00..($152.00 if i only pay the twelve dollar fee)....WTF...... That doesn't include the amount of comics and toys and other shwag I may chose NOT to purchase because this magical place that is really a glorified FLEA MARKET (thank you to the owner of MAXX Collectibles in opening my eyes on the truth behind Comic-cons)

5. This event unfortunately does not fall on the weekend I get payed. Nore was I smart and saved up money for this event. I have bills that need to be payed, rent is due, and I also have a thing called a student loan (that will no doubt make me homeless if i don't find some job that even shows that I got a broadcasting degree for a reason and yes I've tried searching) I love my job at Starbucks but lets be hohnest I want to meet celebs and be paid to ask the questions everyone wants to know.

6. I spent months on my costume and I'm damn proud to say yes I've stooped that low...I'm dressing up for this thing because I love costumes. I've entered the costume contest for the Miss C4 competition and i hope i have most of the competitors beat, not that i mean to toot my own horn, but lets just say I have certain assets that comic artist get alot of grief about over emphasizing. Why is this a problem you ask. Well I have no flippin clue as to where I am going. The website doesn't tell me what room the costume contest is going to be in, NOR did the person who set this up E-mail me to where we are supposed to meet.

Ok I know I'm bitching too much but it does upset me quite a bit. We work hard for our money and not often do you see us UBER NERDS out in the public (the internet is our haven) But do you have to give us a metaphorical wedgie and make us pay a SHIT load of money to entertain us? There should be a law against Extortion.

Believe me, if the patrons of this event are anything like me, it doesn't take a whole lot to make us happy. All we need are the basics: Star Wars, Star Trek, new and used comics, maybe a few guests, and a considerate amount paraphernalia. Oh and FOOD. And unlimited usage of the WI FI connection. And if you charge a SMALL fee for everything.... WE WON'T BITCH!!!!

GOING TO THE CHAPEL....

Well actually its more like Going to the gazebo.

Yup its finally here, time to get hitched and start a family. I honestly thought I'd be waiting much longer.

So my stress level is down a few thousnd notches, but I still feel apprehensive. I have friends and family asking me if I'm doing the right thing.

Ladies and gentlemen let me ask you a question? If you had waited patiently for 6 long years for your partner to move in with you, wouldn't you want to get married too?

I have a great wedding planned, not sure what to expect but everything is planned.

Many thanks are in order... Mary Lou (mom #2) much appreciated for planning a wedding in such short notice. I know we only gave you three months but you did an excellent job. Wally (Dad #2) thank you for not going insane with the last minute running around. And of course to my fiance who kept me strong this entire time when I felt like I had failed as a human being.

To my family and friends Thank you for sticking by me and encouraging me to stick with a wonderful man. I only wish I had enough money so I could take all of you out for a steak dinner.

I love you all and I can't wait to see you at the wedding on Saturday.

WHOSE WEDDING IS IT ANYWAY?????

Ladies and Gentlemen, AS IF you didn't know that I'm engaged because I've been clearly stating it for the past year or so.

But that's not what my bitch is about. I'm having a hard time with a few things lately. and Its not like my life had been quietly playing out all its drama as of late. Not in the slightest. Some of you are probably still wondering WTF!!! I don't feel like going into alot of details because I strongly believe in privacy.

Me and my Fiance are working through a few problems and I am glad to announce his arival home finally after six years, Yup you read that right. We've been dating for the past 8 years but i moved to the city and for 6 years we've been doing a "Long Distance Relationship" IT SUCKS ASS.

I missed him alot and it made travel time very difficult because I don't drive. I'm sure if I did I would have drove out to the country more. Many times I've wanted to end the relationship but he told me we can make this work. Too many people give up to easy, and thats what we both hated about today's society. No one believes in working hard anymore. And those that do get the shit end of the stick.

When I felt like I just couldn't take it any more and I was at my wits end with the way I was being treated by his family, my fiance told me not to give up.

He proposed to me one night while getting together with my parents. We were already engaged but I kinda resented that he never propsed to me properly, we had just agreed to get married and then made the anouncement at a family gathering.

So there I am crying because I was just getting over a pre life crissis ( a mid life crissis are for women who are cougars) DR. Knowitall is down on one knee and hes holding my hands trieng to convince me not to run. He tells me how much he loves me and needs me, I'm crying even more after he asks that I marry him this year instead of next year.

Like a moron I'm thinking "I have no camera" I tell him that I would. which gave us exactly 3 months to plan a wedding....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Everything is being done I just have to pay for the cake, The rings were prity easy to find, the flowers are being made as we speek. The dress is in my closet awaiting for my chesty body to lose a few inches so I can do up the zipper. Point of advice future brides this should be the time that you buy the dress, I made the mistake of going back in the winter time to buy the dress (gatta love winter weight)

My mother in law is a sweet woman, I love her. But the only thing we have in common is the fact that we had a ruff bringing up. Shes taken the burdon of planning our wedding, how ever I think she's planning more her wedding then mine. She doesn't like what we chose for our wedding toppers, she wants full controll of the music selection, and shes even tried to change the dress on me SEVRAL TIMES.


Ladys I'm not a girley girl, I just wanted a BAR-B-Q and a potluck dinner with some friends and family. I realy didn't want a big suaret. But there must be a party. Hey I'm all for dancing and having a great time, but I also don't want to feel like a guest at my own wedding. So my dear fiance is going to talk to his mom about a few things that we don't agree on.

It the man's wedding too and I want to make sure that he has a say in what goes as well, but he told me he just wants to get married he doesn't care as long as i'm wearing a white dress and theres a minister at the alter.

I feel like i'm going insane but I know all will work out in the end.